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By Maxwell Jacobson

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Whole of the moon

February 2, 2023

Check out this cover of Whole of the Moon by Fiona Apple:

(I particularly like when the wandering camera lingers on her boot, stomping to the beat)

I wasn’t familiar with the original song by The Waterboys from 1985 (I never even heard of The Waterboys).

I wandered out in the world for years

While you just stayed in your room

I saw the crescent

But you saw the whole of the moon

This reminds me of that Pinegrove song with a very similar title, Size of the Moon:

That one has these lines:

I got caught

you got those caravaggio moves

We had some good ideas but we never left that fucking room

And later:

I remember that too

In your living room, right?

When we began to fight but then we both got confused

Then we were laughing & crying in awe of the size of the moon

In both songs we’re comparing ourselves to others, we’re trapped in rooms, we’re thinking about the moon.

I love when songs are in conversation with each other and I didn’t even know it. Finally hearing that other part of the conversation after only hearing one side for a while expands something about both.

Something about being in a room when the moon is up there is profane, maybe?

Via Merlin Mann on twitter.

Natasha Lyonne on Directing

January 29, 2023

I’m really liking the new show Poker Face, and I adored this quote from an interview Natasha Lyonne did to promote it:

(She’s the star of the show, but the question was about directing; she directed one episode of the show, and several other episodes of other shows)

I’ve been obsessed with movies, like — OK, this is weird, but if you actually, for reasons unknown to me, slowly took all the skin off my body, and you’re curious what I was made of on the inside, you’d just see a bunch of images, clung together from all these classic films. And that’s actually how I’m still walking, despite all those cigarettes, is that the images, they don’t experience the downside of nicotine. And so the tar keeps them glued together. That’s what celluloid means. And I love problem-solving. And I love improvising. And despite my seemingly maybe wacky nature, I’m a deeply obsessive workaholic, who’s a very precise perfectionist. So I love heavy preparation and exactitude. I like very clear parameters, and then filling the frame within it with as much information as possible. But I don’t actually like lawless chaos. If you’ve been to my house, my bed is always made. I don’t know how to describe it. I just have big hair — that’s the best way I can put it. And I think it’s potentially misleading to people. But I really, really love directing. All my heroes are really, directors. I love acting. The thing that I love with acting, though, is, it’s almost like being a musician. I like the idea that Rian’s a composer, and he’s letting me know what part of the song I can play in service to his album. And I want to do it as best I can for him, and it makes me happy to do it. But with writing and producing and the way it all kind of comes together with directing now, it’s very fun to have pages on set and be correcting them in real time with the actors, as things are adjusting. I also love looking at the schedule obsessively and figuring it out. I love being in the edit, and the feeling of when a song or score lands correctly over a sequence to tie it together is such a joyful experience. I feel very alive when it’s all happening. And I like to not feel dead inside.

Read the rest here: https://www.rollingstone.com/tv-movies/tv-movie-features/natasha-lyonne-poker-face-accent-tripping-acid-new-york-city-rian-johnson-1234659240/

Being Alive

January 26, 2023

Here’s a video of Raul Esparza performing Being Alive from Company.

One of those interpretations that really wrings the meaning from every word.

Via the replies to this tweet from TV critic Emily Nussbaum on twitter.

Water walk

January 25, 2023

Check out this experimental John Cage performance from 1960:

This is some wackadoo shit, and I had a great time watching it.

Via this cool Kyle Chayka thread about minimalism (not sure how minimalist this thing is tbh).

Morning Announcements

January 25, 2023

This isn’t officially a Derry Girls parody but it gets at the same joy. Aubrey Plaza is so great.

I feel like this is a weird time of life to become an SNL fan but why shouldn’t I be? Not to damn it with faint praise, but some of it’s funny.

Brewfile

January 23, 2023

I recently learned about Homebrew Bundle, which seems to come installed when you install Homebrew, the unofficial package manager for macOS.

I had seen a Brewfile occasionally, while lurking on people’s dotfiles repos, but I didn’t quite know what it was, and assumed it was some janky third party thing.

But no, it’s an official part of homebrew1, and it’s actually quite nice and easy to use. Here’s how I set it up in my dotfiles repo.

First, I added a file called Brewfile in the root of my dotfiles which looks like this:

brew "bat" # cat but with syntax highlighting
brew "cloc" # count lines of code
brew "emacs" # text editor that I have always meant to learn but never actually got around to
brew "fd" # find replacement

There’s more in there, but you get the gist.

I use rcm to manage my dotfiles, so I can trust that when I run rcup, it will create a symlink at ~/.Brewfile which points to this file.

Then, all I need to do is run brew bundle --no-lock --global and Homebrew Bundle will look in exactly that location (~/.Brewfile) and install the packages listed there.

Additionally, rcm has a great feature called hooks, where it will invoke some custom scripts before or after linking all your dotfiles. I decided to add a hook that will automatically run that command after it links the files. It’s pretty easy, I just created a file called hooks/post-up/brew-bundle that looks like this:

#!/bin/bash

set -ex

brew bundle --no-lock --global

Now I can trust that every time I run rcup, I’ll install all of the packages listed in that file. I sync these dotfiles to two macOS computers (a desktop and a laptop) and so it’s very likely that I’ll add a package on one machine and then auto-install it on another.

Nice!

Shout out to Noah Portes Chaikin, whose dotfiles I was lurking on which inspired me to try this.

  1. I’m sure there are some who would argue that homebrew itself is a janky third party thing but I don’t have time for them. 

Mirrors in Movies

January 23, 2023

God bless the YouTube algorithm for surfacing this video to me because I’ve been wondering how the hell they do this for years.

For me, the more interesting question isn’t “how” do they do this (although I am very interested in that!) but also… why?

I can see an argument that it’s more immersive, but for me it’s a common uncanny valley, where I just find myself struck by the clever artifice of how it was constructed instead of paying attention to the characters or story.

Pumpkin Cowboy

January 20, 2023

I’m going to have this song stuck in my head all week.

Pumpkin cowboy!

Giri Nathan on Andy Murray

January 19, 2023

I so love to read Giri Nathan’s tennis columns over at Defector, and his post today about Andy Murray is typically excellent: https://defector.com/andy-murray-sacrifices-his-body-and-sleep-to-deliver-another-classic-win

It’s captivating to watch this man spit, scrape, and grimace his way through these victories, as if he’d laid out in advance the most miserable possible task for himself and then slogged through it as punishment.

The first clip embedded in that post had my jaw on the floor.

I slept through more than five hours of this match but was glad to catch the end of it.

Even if we're not, we're alright

January 19, 2023

It could be that it’s 5:35 and I’m up late watching tennis and half asleep but I adore this performance of “We’re Alright” by Joseph Anthony Camerlengo from 2012:

It’s jolted me back awake.

The album version of the track is way, way shorter and comparatively restrained.

But lyrics like these (“I’m afraid I haven’t sang it enough, but I love you”) deserve to be repeated and screamed until the sound gives out.